tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55291882011-07-31T03:45:27.565-04:00Haven of thoughtsJust a place I can chill and type my thoughts, experiences and other miscellaneous stuff. Have fun reading and commenting.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comBlogger6841100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-71097751535972371512009-07-28T16:53:00.002-04:002009-07-28T16:58:17.608-04:00what to get sungil? hmmm...a funny card fo shothen i wanna get him some clothes or shoes or something...so .. i should make him a little ticket to shop with me :)maybe i could get him a card..and put in it an american eagle tag for a shirt..or american eagle jeans..or an adidas tag for shoes.. and put on a dollar value to get him those things..which i think will be $40. so his bday present is Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-21125092639547552892009-07-28T12:06:00.003-04:002009-07-28T12:23:59.680-04:00i feel like i'm losing grip of what i'm supposed to be doing here...I. apply for pharmacy schools- pharmcas application- supplemental applicationsUCSF: those essays..fill out app and send it inUoP: online applicationTouro: send in pharmcas app firstNorthstate: send in pharmcas app firstII. work on CA residency- get a ca license- go to post office to change my addressIII. Getting legally married- Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-20472803828499030082009-07-22T13:16:00.003-04:002009-07-22T13:18:25.983-04:00i'm sorry..i'm really sorrythat i didn't book a flight that's later..i'm sorry..that i didn't think about your needsi'm sorrythat I didn't take your situation into considerationi'm sorry i won't be here when you are donethat you won't have a summer till all your friends are in school.i'm sorryi'm not absorbant enough for the love you so want to give meEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-25767212348630714602009-07-22T11:58:00.001-04:002009-07-22T12:00:07.935-04:00name change GREEN CARDhttp://www.usimmigrationsupport.org/greencard_update.htmlto download the pdf form is $50wow it's alot of money..i'm gonna ask papa to contact our lawyer maybe he can get it done for cheaper? idkEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-67686157958528904252009-07-22T11:35:00.002-04:002009-07-22T11:57:34.688-04:00changing name with social securityhttp://www.ssa.gov/online/ss-5.htmlA name change document (e.g., marriagedocument) must identify you by both your old and new names.Generally, we prefer to see documents issued in the U.S. Documents submitted toestablish identity must show your legal name AND provide biographical information (your date ofbirth, age, or parents' names) and/or physical information Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-58784487508339695122009-07-17T02:12:00.003-04:002009-07-17T02:20:44.581-04:00thoughts for my hubby:eat three square mealsportion control..means dont eat after feeling fulllots of water..sometimes a nap is better than a snack..sit down and breathe..calm down. and then eat your meal..savoring what you're eating.watch the saturated fat and refined sugars (like sobe drinks!)it's okay to take food home :Pi want to convey these thoughts to him through my example first and Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-91268773876631731512009-07-17T02:03:00.002-04:002009-07-17T02:11:25.530-04:00what i should restrict is things with saturated fat. in this kitchen..that includes: cheesered meat, it has alot of saturated fat, including beef and porkbutterand that's it. i noticed that i'm kinda chunky..and even last week at camp I was eating wayy too much first of all..but i ate alot of fat too.and of course..try to restrict eating when I am already full..or between meals. but really needEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-66831954404675449802009-07-13T11:01:00.000-04:002009-07-13T11:02:12.151-04:00okay things to dopractice pianostudy koreanapplications15 pager (by end of july)Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-91117967064000586302009-07-12T19:12:00.002-04:002009-07-12T19:15:33.377-04:00alright while im here....can work on...15 pagerapplicationspianokoreanread classic books.communicating with sungil better.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-13363279621897889152009-06-24T23:27:00.002-04:002009-06-24T23:29:26.619-04:00thursday...morning - work on paper 3..11am - meet up with pamela, get paperwork done.12pm - meet up with joey..hopefully be done by 4pm..? or she could come over and have dinner.thenfriday...finish paper 3 forreal manget started on 15pager.meet up with Dr. Ward, get transcripts doneEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-21868874871373550892009-06-24T18:41:00.001-04:002009-06-24T18:44:59.780-04:00so i'm gonna talk about criticisms first...? or maybeand then say that the value of suzuki's stuff?no i'll talk about suzuki in general and how it's so great.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-10222826431472632442009-06-23T18:28:00.005-04:002009-06-23T19:22:49.798-04:00nice..300,000won for EVERYTHING... which is about $236 booyea.so..im gonna be there august, sep, oct, nov, decem, jan: $1400.and plane ticket go back to cal and back to korea....$960..noceokay his break dec 11 to jan 4yonsei's break dec 3 to jan 7alright..it makes sense that i like totally change my ticket.interviews:ucsf: late jan, early febpacific: dec to martouro: sep to marEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-19321083496903389072009-06-22T16:47:00.000-04:002009-06-22T16:48:53.941-04:00poem i found that i wrote last summer..yeah..that summerButtered scone, peruvian decafwith a password to free wifiMy treat..to me,a bribe for workto ease the unwillingnessDo you accept card?- overdraft!Santana, Scofield, Sergio Mendes..legends and lesser known local bandswho are Closer to middle age than notAged musically with timeNot strangers to the high of jammingOne with the mysteries of Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-28919336256431960742009-06-16T15:49:00.003-04:002009-06-16T15:51:50.694-04:00man as for bank stuff...i'm not going to close wachovia till i get over there. forreal it's not a big deal..going to california is not the end of the world!!!Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-71199066294811313572009-06-16T15:19:00.002-04:002009-06-16T15:30:56.547-04:00okay....made lots of progres today.so for korean visa..all i need to do is get a picture 2X2 with a white background..and go in on thursday..oh yea baby. (go to bekim thursday morning..then go to new york in late morning..yes..peak is any train reaching new york before 10am..and depart after 4pm. so if i meet up from 9:30am to 10:30am..i can get on a train by 11am..and get there by 1pm..then getEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-13636735422883868872009-06-13T16:20:00.001-04:002009-06-13T16:22:55.671-04:00ahh.Korea - get on that visa application from the consulate! what the heck..pharm - alright..got the letter of intent goin awesome.. English - finish paper tuesday morning..Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-69830185741278744352009-06-08T17:28:00.003-04:002009-06-08T17:31:55.338-04:00do i need to.......get my thoughts together for my letter of intent...in order to ask for references?yes.and i need to get my LOR done asap.which means...i should relax my head andtry to get my thoughts together for why i want to do pharm...yeah..i need help with that...i should do it like i were to make a speech about it..and hold a conversation about it..present it in a passionate way.questionsEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-9654976835058810762009-06-08T17:13:00.002-04:002009-06-08T17:21:46.907-04:00ahhhhhhhhhhhalright do what's easy first gosh...just sit at my computer and fill out all the stuff...the boring stuff. i need to ask sungildo you want me back sooner or later?Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-5090642854398430632009-06-08T07:59:00.002-04:002009-06-08T08:14:45.532-04:00bleah i just wanna blah about everything...like for korea..i really really want to make good money..Sungil is struggling with money now..and his parents are too...i have a college degree..what am I waiting for man. but i feel like it would take too much effort to find a one year job..oh my gosh..like if I do a one year..it means i have to wait till july of next year to be with him..well maybe heEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-51184979811584047332009-06-07T22:27:00.002-04:002009-06-07T22:28:43.272-04:00KOREA update:Visasponsorship: waiting for submissionbank: waiting for 6/11Place to staywaiting for Rika/Mr. Kim for the okay at CARPback up - ask Uncle David if can stay with them for a couple days and during that time find a place to stay at CARP or whereverOnce I secure both of the above, book my ticket ASAP!Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-66232915036935419632009-06-02T20:01:00.002-04:002009-06-02T20:31:54.090-04:00KOREA-apply..pay..get visa..get room..go over in early september..find a job.PHARMACYEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-50007406318407701992009-06-02T19:08:00.003-04:002009-06-02T19:37:12.681-04:00wow so..july 1-11 hang out and one heart...maybe i should stay the extra week at one heart to help out..but then we had already figured out the parents come that weekend. hmm...i mean they could come later?then after one heart..we'll get legally married..get my residency stuff done like getting my bank address changed..i'll work on applications for pharm school...why do i keep thinking about likeEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-72026220409692461362009-05-31T18:10:00.002-04:002009-05-31T18:21:04.925-04:00yonseiseoulpart time job: goal to make $1500 a month workin three days a week...save $1000 a month? rent and food $150one heart camp..come back and work til end of augustEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-73501262623985889072009-05-31T07:11:00.002-04:002009-05-31T07:11:57.754-04:00more money stuffYonsei CARP house:$150 rent inc food and utilities..whoa!Josh and Annika :PEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-78031860600573468322009-05-30T00:11:00.002-04:002009-05-30T00:14:37.063-04:00he says that because others don't ask him about his problems..that causes him alot of pain..and to resolve this..he's going to be more transparent and vulnerable while being genuine instead of thinking what people are thinking of him.I want to make sure I always ask about him...be as caring about him as he is for me...poor baby.we're still breaking the ice..yeah..we are man.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-216086662519576422009-05-27T16:04:00.003-04:002009-05-27T16:09:25.475-04:00so in seoul:yonsei will be more expensive (2,400 for two semesters..)but also getting a job with potentially more pay have higher chancesin sun moon:tuition is much lower ($1000 for two semesters)I believe getting a job is possible..but it will not have as high pay.and then there's the visa thing.uncle daniel says going on a student visa would be good...and find a job there.annika says getting a Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-17160458839932393482009-05-27T11:43:00.001-04:002009-05-27T11:43:53.823-04:00from ucsf blog.I've had many conversations with her over the past few years regarding what types of students we should look for -- meaning "what students will make the best fit for UCSF." Mary Anne believes we should take a very close and serious look at applicants that share the same characteristics that describe UCSF and the faculty/staff/students that make up our community -- bold thinking, Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-29736696954632228772009-05-23T13:27:00.003-04:002009-05-23T13:51:04.216-04:00I think alot about how I can support SungilI think alot about how I can be an aid to him..in youth ministry and his passions.but trying to be like him..does not help our couple..if we are both super active in youth ministryif wea re both very very busy all the time..what balance can I bring to our couple?in many ways than I realize..sungil is my role model..i wanna be like him..he's like my big Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-13582347538773141202009-05-22T07:10:00.005-04:002009-06-02T19:08:16.751-04:00koreaapplication fee - $46tuition - $1227textbooks - $50need to have a bank statement of $3000flight one way - $500 (studentuniverse.com)okay then live at carp house..$150according to josh..i can make $1400 .. maybe save $1000-1200 a month :)alright go in august or september? maybe stay with sungil's family till sportsfest (august 15)..then go off to korea. the program:Classes are offered 5 days Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-10965358535658367192009-05-14T22:29:00.002-04:002009-05-14T22:39:37.767-04:00Dearest Heavenly Father,This is my reflection of today.I felt guided to speak with many people today, at Kolbe Cathedral, on campus friends and coworkers and with another second generation. It's incredible the people you place in front of me to speak to. I want to have the heart to share with them of your working in my life..the God-piece, the anchor of faith, the belief in the divine. Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-5139753399462944052009-05-13T10:26:00.002-04:002009-05-13T11:41:10.402-04:00so..hmmm...i'm excited to think that i could go to korea for a year..but interviews for pharmacy school start as early as ... september and end as late as march. hmm..i really really want to go to pharmacy school in UCSF..which is january to february. and maybe i can schedule the other interviews for during that time as well. hmm...is that a risk i'm willing to take? cuz interviewing earlier Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-45296584051424811842009-04-27T07:24:00.002-04:002009-04-27T07:27:03.160-04:00A-5 min presentation todayC-15 min presentation tomorrowE-study for finalP-10 min speech need to write wednesdayM-gosh that lab reportEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-60131304717792809382009-04-16T12:44:00.002-04:002009-04-16T12:59:37.390-04:00soo..should it be a more government control or a personal control?well the government has a stake in itbut the main determinant is by individuals.or should my paper seek to make a discussion of happiness instead of putting forward any single thing about happiness? like there is a great wealth of knowledge on happiness..and how to pursue it. but yeah..anyways..so i will start with talking about1. Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-73604333029307073212009-04-16T12:32:00.002-04:002009-04-16T12:36:13.544-04:00okay so this weekend..i'm only working saturday night...noce..i can work on the capstone paper that's due tuesday...that's plenty of good time.so wei talked about using life experiences..that will touch people's lives.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-38470599203268601752009-04-06T21:21:00.003-04:002009-04-06T22:10:06.347-04:00http://sph.berkeley.edu/degrees/areas/epibio.htmlAdmissions The M.P.H. degree program in epidemiology/biostatistics welcomes applicants who have relatively little background but a strong desire for training in the health fields. Without experience in a specific health area, it can be difficult to gain entrance into an epidemiology doctoral program. This M.P.H. program provides an entry to Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-11157887656948904802009-04-06T18:21:00.002-04:002009-04-06T18:48:57.136-04:00so what are some things i need to think about in terms of moving to another state?what are the paper work to gain residency in another state/alright i'm gonna work on the bulk of the paper for english on friday. lol.. maybe wednesday morning i'll make an outline..yeah. cool..that means by this weekend..i'll only have one big paper to worry about..capstone..meh. and that one isn't going toEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-75645227202315984592009-04-06T12:50:00.002-04:002009-04-06T12:56:23.471-04:00okay sooo...no class at one.soo psyched. i'll be writing up my speech outline and practicing my speech. yeesh..i should definitely be practicing by 1:30pm.then..class till about 3:30pm..go to the office..then5pm talk to Sungil :)then...i think i'll go home..hmm..or..maybe i'll stay in bpt and work onA - draft!! do this where? engineering building..cuz that's where the internet is.and i have Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-89558441633033142112009-03-21T18:01:00.002-04:002009-03-21T18:09:07.623-04:00okay1. what were my questions..oh man.keep on tryingfar future:weddingwhen living together?Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-26258600886901351622009-02-27T15:00:00.003-05:002009-02-27T15:12:24.028-05:00the good things going for me when i apply to ucsf, touro, northstate and U of pacific:1. gpa 3.92. resume - leadership, summa cum laude, music, jobs3. pharmacy volunteer hours4. letters of recommendation from Bekim, Santiago, Katsifis? Lisa?5. for touro and northstate i would already be living in california. i wonder if i should apply to ucsf and u of pacific when i have moved to cali already...Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-52253478947663038052009-02-17T13:58:00.000-05:002009-02-17T13:59:02.194-05:00courage does not always roar. sometimes it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying "I will try again tomorrow"Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-71477931394101828802009-02-17T13:09:00.003-05:002009-02-17T13:48:21.041-05:00okay i need to vent a little.i thinki need tocalm downa littleis he a critical personif he is thats cool..he may be critical in a different way...and i will have to deal with it..instead of smiling and evading like i always do.alright..so.....you really have to make effort to stay in your position as sister...not as wife! u have to come across as a sister in what you say, write and do.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-1826208308119232422009-02-10T12:59:00.003-05:002009-02-10T13:14:22.549-05:00caloric content of common foods i eat:banana - 73apple - 55hardboiled egg - 13clementine - 35one grape - 2tofu is 50-70 according to how much i put1 cup miso soup - 361 medium avocado - 161 (about 40 if I take 1/4)peanut butter - 1 tbsp 801 cup very berry cereal - 230scone - 150hot chocolate - 113wow..and 'healthy' snacks likecaramel fiber one bar - 180sun chips - 210that's crazy how much more Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-34392823238607308142009-02-08T22:54:00.001-05:002009-02-08T22:58:10.053-05:00adv exp: read morgan stanley report grr..rewrite search enginesecon: do homework, review notes (monday morning)capstone: read lost horizon...idk till where though.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-10199490768269907082009-02-05T13:13:00.002-05:002009-02-05T13:30:27.223-05:00okay so work till 4:30pm- read morgan stanley report- hoon duk hae4:30pm to 7:30pm-hang out with jessie at the mall and get lotions-get back to Bridgeport8pm-Meet with Namhi9pm-YAM meeting.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-37882372931366655312009-01-27T15:58:00.002-05:002009-01-27T16:16:50.540-05:00im in my last semester whoo!and i have five classes...all of which are pretty straight forward. so i'll have lots more time to develop other interests (besides volleyball and piano). first I really want to cut down my facebook time. it's self centered and not productive .. consuming.i really hope to read more this semester..read up on mandarin, on world affairs, on the heart, on the brain..on Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-61619580251219737992009-01-27T08:52:00.003-05:002009-05-13T09:52:12.169-04:00so nor cal pharmacy schools:UCSF (1 h 20 mins)NorthState (rancho cordova 30 mins)Touro (vallejo, 51mins)University of Pacific (stockton, 1 h 4 mins)i'm pretty excited about this.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-4991220460934700302008-12-28T22:56:00.003-05:002008-12-28T23:04:04.159-05:00food from my restaurant i wanna learn to makerolls i can make:boston - shrimp, avo, lettuce, mayonew havencaliforniaveg rolls: avo, cucu, with mint, nattoshrimp tempura rollsweet potato tempura rollphiladelphiashrimp specialdishes:soba saladagedashitempuragomaaeshiraaeTempura icecreambanana tempuraudon/soba: nabeyakitatsutaagechicken cutletnegimiyakishrimp and avo teriyakiEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-90842773053974802592008-12-23T22:03:00.002-05:002008-12-23T22:18:10.229-05:00got inspiration to play classical music, when u get the keyboard what would u play? got a card and pic from smith family, cute family picturewill be flying to LA jan 4th, back jan 11th, won't be going to the bay area.will be applying during the break, if i get in i will defer a year.I did have to buy something at the mall..had forgotten all about it.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-77076172214163286292008-11-27T22:25:00.002-05:002008-11-27T22:29:50.739-05:00okay..so the semester ends december 12, so i'm hoping all the grades will be out by december 20. so december 22, 23 (monday and tuesday) i'm going to push for my transcripts to be sent out. hopefully they will get it done. soo..then that will reach pharmcas hopefully by the first week of january..please! ...so that's plenty of time till the feb 2 deadline.so......by the third week of december,Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-82381660718131443822008-11-25T09:20:00.002-05:002008-11-25T09:23:15.316-05:00alright...today..tuesdayneed help with the micro lab reports...i wanna ask adam if he has time in the afternoon and i can go over it with him.and then...i need to print out the transcript request form and submit it.and then...i need to talk to dr. santiago and let her know i would like her to write a good recommendation for me.my goals over thanksgiving:write the microbiology lab reportswrite theEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-40157227826877355212008-11-15T19:09:00.002-05:002008-11-15T19:21:55.483-05:00Dear Heavenly Father,I've made mistakes and bad conditions little by little over the past week..even though i tried my best to move forward into my 21st year with a stable heart and mind. There are struggles, and this does not mean that my 21st year will be struggle, it means there will be many opportunities to see You amidst all the difficulties.Heavenly Father, I want to use this evening to Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-43127136523707357312008-11-13T14:45:00.001-05:002008-11-13T14:46:02.513-05:00actually i'll be taking not only capstone inthe summer..but also english (comp and rhet) cuz i got an ap score of 3 :(Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-5272376567412452892008-11-11T13:54:00.003-05:002008-11-11T13:56:29.039-05:00i should check out American Society of Health-System Pharmacists'and i was reading on monster http://career-advice.monster.com/job-industry-profiles/healthcare/Hospital-Pharmacists-Play-Bigger-Ro/home.aspxof this guy who is a hospital pharmacist and also works in infectious diseases. and another guy is a hospital pharmacist and also teaches pharmacology. i think this is realy cool...especiallyEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-45697335633167273682008-11-10T22:53:00.004-05:002008-11-11T07:10:31.991-05:00PCAT exam: Jan 24, 2009Deadline to register: Dec 12, 2008well there was one in april of 2008...and then one in june 2008. so i'm guessing they're 2 months apart...so there will be another one maybe march/april of 2009. i don't think i should rush in studying for this test.and the scores of the test will be sent within 6 weeks after to the institutionother questions: how much does it cost?how Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-74291149587241562302008-11-09T22:27:00.003-05:002008-11-09T22:34:01.312-05:00things i could do instead of going on the computer:1. study2. practice/study music3. read (go to the bookstore)4. reflect..go on a walk.actually i think sometimes i go on the computer to relax my mind. sometimes during studying or something i need to let me mind just relax...and what do i do..i go to the computer. i mean there are times when the computer is good..like looking up speeches. and Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-71287038258510558802008-11-08T16:00:00.002-05:002008-11-08T16:04:04.432-05:00i should make it a point to go to barnes and nobles once a week (westport or milford) to read up on science books.or else...i should find journals or websites on line that I can read up on.cut down on internet use (primarily fb) so I can use the time to1. study2. practice music3. read and exploreand in the future...i will be needing to make time for volunteering .. it sounds like i will be Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-65233234506825791912008-11-08T07:32:00.003-05:002008-11-08T07:48:07.866-05:00In Jin Nim says we have to be internally and externally excellent.Father says we have to multitask as women.Talked to Mrs. Hauer the other day and i've been in the process of reflecting.What papa says is quite opposite to everything she says. Reflecting on that too.Bottomline, I can hear from both sides..but I need to overcome that weakness of hearing from everyone else.. I need to build the Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-58916416140595312252008-10-29T15:16:00.001-04:002008-10-29T15:23:02.445-04:00to apply to pharm school..this is from ucsf:the general application is available june 1, deadline nov 1the supplemental application is july 18 deadline nov 1Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-40970146869625557272008-10-29T14:54:00.002-04:002008-10-29T15:12:25.912-04:00pharmD/MPH programs1. UCSF/UC Berkeley2. University of Maryland http://www2.pharmacy.umaryland.edu/administration/academics/programs/dualdegree.html3. University of South Californiahttp://www.usc.edu/schools/medicine/departments/preventive_medicine/divisions/behavior/education/mph/dual_degrees.htmlother good pharmd programs1. northeastern universityhttp://www.pharmsci.neu.edu/gradprograms/Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-30174758746667738732008-10-26T23:14:00.002-04:002008-10-26T23:19:10.987-04:00okay...this week...not going to tuesday or thursday night meetings..working wed, fri, sun.and saturday...not going anywhere saturday night..like pick up jessie and go home.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-90290224321802520952008-10-24T11:46:00.003-04:002008-10-24T12:04:14.165-04:00i ate wayyy too much .. had a sandwich and a soup in a bread bowl..what?! no dinner for me!wow..true musicianship..yeah I need to build a repertoire of songs..and maybe start composing songs..that are reflective of able type music. also my interest in jazz/blues/latin is good. .. how can we give joy to heavenly father through those styles of music?Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-47562343914412308112008-10-22T16:59:00.000-04:002008-10-22T17:01:37.094-04:00micro: review notes man..ahh!christianity: read that chapter...paul the wise apostleEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-25590536453674096602008-10-22T07:50:00.002-04:002008-10-22T08:03:16.454-04:00I have to pioneer, I have to outreach, I have to testify. This I can no longer just let myself forget. How many times I've been told by papa, and now i think i'm finally getting it, that I need to do this. And I'm beginning to realize that the things God ask you to do, are the things you don't want to do. He's been sending me signs through people, but I do'nt want to listen, my stubbornnessEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-22280449814294673122008-10-21T16:29:00.001-04:002008-10-21T16:33:31.103-04:00parts of the pcat exam:Part 1: Verbal Ability section contains 48 items - Analogies will make up 60% of the subtest, while sentence completion exercises will make up the remaining 40% Part 2: Biology section contains 48 item - general biology (60%); microbiology (20%); and human anatomy and physiology (20%). Part 3: Chemistry section contains 48 item - 60% gen chem, 40% org chemPart 4: Reading Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-86418235850522397312008-10-18T15:53:00.002-04:002008-10-18T17:49:09.476-04:00soul jazz artists i likewillie mitchellyoung holt unlimitedjimmy mcgriffjimmy smithjack mcduffEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-25977743827337103892008-10-18T13:38:00.001-04:002008-10-18T13:41:48.421-04:00so what am i doing now?staples..again then get some gas to go home.play piano i want to yeah..and after ill bring jessie home..yeah.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-28656750359726569112008-10-18T13:37:00.000-04:002008-10-18T13:38:11.862-04:00so .. ah..I should be more prudent and careful.well no regrets okay.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-6351643161415319952008-10-18T13:32:00.002-04:002008-10-18T13:37:06.272-04:00ahh...i've been spending alot yo..:(anyways..i'll be working at the restaurant for the following dates:10/22, 10/24, 10/26, 10/31. yikes...average of $60 each day so that's $300. And i'm predicting to have clocked in about 15 hours total for october, because he won't be working next wednesday till nov 3..eeehh! so that's about 225. and then there's suzuki i'll be paid $93 next saturday. So..Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-27226295472799177022008-10-15T11:31:00.003-04:002008-10-15T11:45:46.400-04:00so i want to set aside time during the week..where i expand my mind..haha. like i'm interested in reading more about music/nurturing/character education. then i'm also interested in how to use the web to outreach...like In Jin Nim said:American young people are quite well versed in their own knowledge when it comes to Eastern religions. So to think that we're going to take the example of how Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-29725623057199231122008-10-13T17:13:00.002-04:002008-10-13T17:17:43.433-04:00okay cool...so i need to go by bestbuy and get some figures...then another day i will print out the pictures for suzuki...also print out pictures for myself: True Parents, me and my parents..and beforehand find a really good recent family photo..and make a copy for everyone to put in their wallets...and send to the fleischmans too. then...that should be good...that i can do another day.as for Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-41769968984655096542008-10-06T18:41:00.001-04:002008-10-06T18:48:00.803-04:00todos...read early christianity 16 and 17laundrytype up the textual analysis thing.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-29928463569639291782008-09-30T15:34:00.004-04:002008-10-06T18:52:43.470-04:00pharmacy school prereqs.2 english compostions classes - I've gotten one down with AP...so i'll need to take one more.public speaking/interpersonal comm - never taken any :/economics - what? never takenmolecular biology (UCSF) - next semester..def.Additional Social and Behavioral Sciences 2 classes (UCSF) - i already have world civ...i think i may need one more?so next semester i'll have englishEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-10313223799939912212008-09-30T15:27:00.001-04:002008-09-30T15:28:56.141-04:00yeah so i wanna get sungila laptop desk...cuz anyways even if he doesn't continue getting internet from his car, his laptop has been said to overheat...soo.. yeah.i also wanna get him wellness pills for super immune boosting when he's thinking he'll get sick :(that's it yeah. practical and good gifts.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-16034580597469034742008-09-23T16:15:00.002-04:002008-09-23T17:10:33.447-04:00pharmacy schools...what..University of Southern California (USC) School of PharmacyUniversity of the Pacific (UOP) School of Pharmacy Touro University School of Pharmacy (in Vallejo)dental schools..http://dentistry.ucsf.edu/admissions/admiss_program1.htmlEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-86448795927040161912008-09-22T22:14:00.001-04:002008-09-22T22:15:34.911-04:00things to think about1. women of the Bible. understanding their roles according to Father so as to understand better the restoration that I will need to go through.2. internet outreach yeah3. investing into people in terms of faith.4. suzuki music...how to step it up for the older kids, new songs, materials..Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-81490019798135554592008-09-22T13:40:00.002-04:002008-09-22T13:54:41.951-04:00ahh...need to buya card for mommycarrot juice for my complexion..ahhha dress plus shoeseveryday shoes that are nice (i could just wear those for the engagement ceremony right?) depends how cute they area pair of skinny washed blue jeans from..pac sun? a nice belt to replace the one i have now...soo..what else am i wearing..those oh so cool converse flats for chill time and if we're doing anythingEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-7361951555077636302008-09-22T07:18:00.002-04:002008-09-22T07:38:50.091-04:00laundry...while recording some awesome music!so i'm in charge of..vacuuming the second floor and stairskitty litterlaundrydishes in the morninggarbage sundaysEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-82342021795013438072008-09-10T07:47:00.002-04:002008-09-10T08:03:38.987-04:00okay what do i need to do in terms of school today:prob & stats: go over problems HW and classmicro: go over lab handoutearly christianity: done for now...A&P: it's cool...for internal stuff:reflect on how i can anchor myself at this time for the next wave of challengesreflect on why i went astrayEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-62324210576844253972008-09-05T06:58:00.001-04:002008-09-05T06:59:43.861-04:00microbiology: read chapter 2 and 3A&P: read a chapterprob & stats: do homework problems and look through theoremsearly christianity: read MarkEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-17552197324833829992008-09-03T08:08:00.003-04:002008-09-03T08:30:38.648-04:00okay today1. call in to make the kaplan payment2. read chapter 4,5,6 in early christianity3. micro: read the next lab4. prob & stats: do homework problems (it's only 4 questions I believe)so this morning...1. tires at town fair, go to starbucks and get my homework listed above done..i think i'll be doing the chapters, but i'll do prob and stats first it's easy.2. bjs get milk too.then afterwards Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-76078125939695665602008-08-26T20:20:00.002-04:002008-08-26T20:24:42.405-04:00todos:1. mcat prep: deposit $300+ into credit card. print out tuition assistance form. go to new haven kaplan center before work tomorrow (call first, cuz maybe i need to go to stamford cuz fairfield is with them). 2. textbooks: check out textbooks online and figure out total $$ needed. go to bank first thing tomorrow morning and deposit money, then purchase online. textbooks for early Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-82546707397833056562008-08-25T23:30:00.002-04:002008-08-25T23:38:15.913-04:00change of plans whoai should take the kaplan mcat prep course starting end of september and it will go through to february. which is around the time OATs are given. and then give it a couple more months of practice and then take the april mcats.soo..fall, this semester, should be my part time semester. and then next semester I will get with all my other courses. so def taking A&P and Micro, Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-13060402624175976812008-08-23T16:28:00.005-04:002008-08-23T16:33:51.262-04:00so i bump into dr. gaillard yet again on a shift not my own - i covered for tutusooo...he's telling me some other thingsi can go to southern or quinnipiac and get a masters in biomedical something...that will be my research experience, and for that I don't need to have GREs to get in. noce. so the pressure is definitely off. then go for the MD PHD program.anyways..his main point about the Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-8153508266626005952008-08-21T09:23:00.005-04:002008-08-22T23:15:00.944-04:00okay...so for savingsi need envelopes for1. school tuition spring: 20% ... cuz i will be paying $70 for being a part time student. i'll only be taking capstone, humanities, psychology...right?! 2. travel expenses (to cali, to asia, to korea, including cheong pyeong): 30% $1500 should be my goal. and if i don't go to asia..this will be my starting money to go off to wherever3. car expenses, Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-69496461708389338812008-08-18T10:22:00.001-04:002008-08-18T10:24:33.484-04:00i just went nuts just nowEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-55775186345888164392008-08-10T23:16:00.002-04:002008-08-11T00:13:48.695-04:00okay..so if i have piano lessons every week for the next year..that's gonna be($65x4)x9 that's 2340 shit..that's 260 a monthokay how about every other week...that's 130 a monthor $45x4 that's 180 a month.idk i think i should put aside some money for that.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-4191603681745919642008-08-08T07:20:00.002-04:002008-08-08T07:26:35.645-04:00so uh..yeahI should takethe OAT test in february and apply to schools in august for fall class 2010Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-45902654863432339472008-08-03T21:04:00.003-04:002008-08-04T09:17:21.562-04:00so when i think of studying...i feel like going to the cafe.i love the musicthe smell of coffeeso i want to recreate that in my roomdrinks i can have with hot water and stevia:1. that korean tea2. ginseng3. rooibus teacoffee i want to have1. peruvian decaf from port coffeehouse2. something from the hungtington cafe :)Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-13596277509265790132008-08-02T00:38:00.000-04:002008-08-02T00:39:16.740-04:00stop bad habits ofspending $ on foodgoing to cafes to studyeatingnot exercising FUCKEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-67179075359061663612008-08-02T00:01:00.002-04:002008-08-02T00:36:14.235-04:00so next semesterdefinite1. classes and studying!2. music (piano, bass, church)3. hospital volunteering4. worki need a job that pays $900$240 bills$130 piano lessons$40 bass lessons$150 gasso the jobs are:only two nights at sonobana (friday and wednesday)..that would be $500-700 a monthand suzuki (saturday) $200 a monthEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-23044516710520424962008-08-01T23:34:00.002-04:002008-08-01T23:44:12.794-04:00aish..the number of jobs i have now:1. sonobana2. suzuki3. teaching piano4. uncle jamesargh i hate iti want a regular job and not all these little jobs you know drives me nuts.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-12975464621953069072008-07-28T23:37:00.002-04:002008-07-28T23:38:04.752-04:00playing latin bass? jumping the gun herei still need to learn my fretboard, get dexterity and speed..play regular bass stuff....learn my scales and what not..basically learn the hal leonard book. and then i can maybe dabble in different bass styles yeahEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-87556531946467877282008-07-04T23:20:00.003-04:002008-07-04T23:33:56.811-04:00hi it's meehso i'm back to worrying about my weightstruggling to fulfill the ideal healthy lifestylethat i once hadit was great. my mind and body were pretty much together with each other and together we overcame stress. but now they are separated...my mind is again tense and is not listening to my body..like they forgot about each other. anyways..like a marriage, the mind and body has to make Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-7789450062203490562008-06-21T00:23:00.003-04:002008-06-21T00:26:26.809-04:00i mean if I get really good at piano..i can make money playing at restaurants/weddings...and teach as well...not to mention jam with other great musicians too. i want to be able to tap into that realm of music...well..i'll graduate next may.. and the whole time i will be taking jazz piano lessons..so a year from now..i want to be able to improv somehow. i need to take my time..i'm still young.Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-1546610887413000842008-06-21T00:19:00.001-04:002008-06-21T00:20:18.704-04:00oh mani want to study musiclike..i want a semester or a year to focus on music. learn that keyboard so well that I can play anything.and let the music high come inEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-91138017757697043732008-06-16T12:08:00.001-04:002008-06-16T12:09:41.620-04:00alrightneed to practice bass and pianoneed to do besame mucho and o grande amorneed to do the holy songsEstherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-58246584466074248302008-06-13T08:25:00.003-04:002008-06-13T08:26:06.505-04:00i want to be able to transition from sheet music to lead sheets eventually.so this means i will need to know my chords and scales like soo excellently. so all i need is the melody line and the chords will tell me what bass line and embellishments I can do. CHORDS!!!!!!!! SCALES!!!!!!!!!Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-30503579477824867822008-05-21T23:02:00.003-04:002008-05-21T23:05:07.220-04:00i need to stop being so needy online..esp in the night like who gives a fuck about you anyways.instead..turn the time into..music practice time, get those headphones out and practice them 7th chords, or learn the bass. or make it extra mcat study time yeah..i could pump out 2 more hours.yeah..so some summer goals..not too serious1. get to the gym everyday2. grow musically (jazz piano, band Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-20773067352333942212008-05-21T22:57:00.002-04:002008-05-21T22:59:33.465-04:00thursdaySTUDY1. bank, settle that letter stuff2. griffin, call them and then go in to set schedule, and look up what area to volunteer that has internship opportunity3. music theory worksheet4. greenwich5. marina fucking village6. swim..yess...7. practice piano stuff, then jammm..Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529188.post-86683543230941160732008-05-20T15:07:00.000-04:002008-05-20T15:08:13.370-04:00so..am i really going to take the mcats in august? idk!!!Estherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11439199630726652095noreply@blogger.com